Road

You plan your trip and your destination

You decide on the routes to take

considering every ramification.

Armed with all the details and plans

you set out on the road

but then

road takes over from you implementing its own plan.

At places it is smooth as butter, luring you to speed through it

enjoying the thrill of being in charge

And then, suddenly there are bumps and potholes

giving you a reality jerk, very harsh.

At places it is straight as pine

you may glide and even take your eyes off it

At places it gets serpentine

with twists and turns

you need to be alert and make the right moves

a wrong one can put you on an unwanted u-turn.

This way your journey goes on

sometimes the road is guiding you

sometimes it becomes part of your crew.

And then one day, you reach your destination

and your journey ends

You bid adieu to the road

and it moves on and on

guiding some other traveller to his destination.

Such is a road

Is it any different from life?

A Veiled Life

All our lives we wear a veil

Not to hide our body

but to hide our soul

Some do it to avoid getting hurt

For baring your soul makes you vulnerable to pain

Some coz they are ashamed of their truest selves

No one wants to be rejected again

We say what we are supposed to

React as expected from us

All the while

silently looking for that someone

who can make us feel safe enough

to take off the veil and just be ourselves

and be accepted for what we are.

No matter what you achieve

no matter what you gain

At the end of the day,

isn’t that all that one yearns.

Veiled Existence

Ask me no questions and I’ll tell you no lies.

Its a sequel of the post written here so for a better experience, please read this first.

So you say one should always tell the truth huh?

Truth always triumphs and truth and nothing but the truth?

Well heres a reality check

You CANNOT tell the truth and facts all the time.

Its not safe. Its not sublime.

For one, people cannot, I repeat, CANNOT digest the truth.

Its a moralistic demand that decays with your youth

Try tellin your ‘sugar’ that his offer for weekend cookin is an approachin doom

Or your neighbour that her son is not anyone’s dream groom

Will you tell your boss his sense of humor is in permanent state of coma

His jokes havnt changed since days of yore

And his one liners aren’t witty anymore.

But no you won’t.

You’ll stand with glass of champagne in your hand

and smile as far as your mouth can bend.

And what when its only about you and yourself

Telling facts to all is making vulnerable oneself

Should one and all know what scares you the most.

That when you have nightmares, you wake up crying and watch sunrise hugging your bedpost.

You cried buckets full watching Shreik 1, 2 and 3

Imagine tellin this to your friends, boy you’ll never hear end if it! 😀

Will you let him see how much his words hurt you?

Betcha you’ll laugh your way away saying ‘No big deal’

He’ll never know it was all a ruse.

Lying is defensive mechanism, it helps retain your pride

People tend to hurt. If you buckle, they’ll jump to ride

So for the better good of others and you

Lying is telling truth, a wee bit skewed.

Secret

Secret.

Secret gives rise to curiosity.

Is it bad? Yes, considering its said to have killed a cat.

But wasnt it the lure of the secret of the apple

that led to apparent downfall of Eve and actually gave birth to human race.

Where would you and I be, if anywhere if it wasnt for curious Eve sinking her teeth in the forbidden fruit.

Mona Lisa smiles and the world wonders why

Is there a secret to her alluring smile? Does she know something that I dont.

We want to know it all. And especially what we are told we shouldn’t know.

Such is a lure of a secret.

Pursuing it can give you acute insomnia

Unrevealing it gives a high like hitting a jackpot.

It gives a feeling of achievement and

ofcourse a boost to ever-present self ego.

But some secrets are best hidden

for revealing them can bring disasters, uproot the life as we know

maybe for one, maybe for all

But then….isn’t that the biggest lure of all?

Broken Thread

Following is a post I wrote long time back. Reproducing it here.

Who breaks the thread; One who pulls it or one who holds on?

I read this quote somewhere and just cudnt let it go…finding an answer to this became a question of integral importance for me.
Who breaks the thread…
Some wud say that the one who pulls it coz he broke the equilibrium.
Pretty simple huh!?!
Maybe not…
At times its important to pull the thread…in such a situation the one holding it needs to let it go…on his understanding of the situation lies the onus of salvaging the thread.

But then again one can argue, shudnt one hold on to what one holds dear? Should one just let go at a small tug? What happened to standing by and fighting for whats yours and what you believe in? Is all that phoney?

No it isnt…but then you have to recognize a lost cause. While not giving in may at times salvage the situation but then if the other person keeps on repeatedly tugging the other end then you know you have to let go of it before it snaps into two. Recognizing such a situation tests the true metal of a person’s logical and practical judgement and will power.

Wow! How convinient is that!?! So the entire onus of salvaging the thread falls on the poor soul who is not even initiating the tug in the first place. Why shudnt the one who pulls the thread bear the brunt of the mishap? Is it to be assumed that his judgement and decision of tugging the thread was accurate on all accounts? Couldnt his logical and practical judgement be flawed? And if it is, then isnt it the responsibility of the other person to bring out the true picture?

And the argument continues….

This is like those unanswerable circular mysteries of human thinking which dont have a concrete answer. And how could there be one when what we are talking about is human thoughts and behaviour.

While I was swinging between these 2 stances, there came a 3rd angle which made this entire excercise futile….What do you do with the thread if its not broken? If one pulls it and other does let go of it, the thread is intact but is it of any use? Whats the big idea about salvaging it when it is not connecting anything? When the 2 ends of the thread have drifted apart, is it any different from another piece of junk?

Jinxed

It is one of those perfect moments of life when if granted a wish, I couldn’t seem to have anything to ask for. I looked around saw serenity and peace of my contented soul reflected in the world. People looked; awe mixed with envy. Some admire. Some envy. And the moment the odd fear of loosing it all strikes, I pushed it away and sighed, “Its Perfect. Just perfect.”

CRASH

And in place of the perfection I was proud of, I was facing ruins. It was as if my dreams were materialized for a nano second and then wiped off as an evil joke. I looked around desperately for something that can be rescued, something that spoke of some hope, some life…but I found none.

As someone who believed the phrase, ‘Everything happens for a reason’, I searched for a reason, a logic, a tell-tale sign I must have missed. Why? Why me? What went wrong? What did I do wrong? Wasn’t it perfect? I felt so. Everyone said so. Then why?

And then someone came up behind me and said which left me bewildered and speechless. It was too good to last for long. It had to get jinxed.

Commitment or happiness!?!

The way I look @ it, whatever you do in life, your ultimate aim is your happiness. If something makes you happy, don’t think twice about taking it up. Afterall, if you cant make yourself happy, you cannot make anyone happy. 🙂 So your happiness is paramount.

On another side is commitment. Something which you have taken up. Mind it, this is different from responsibility since responsibility is at times given to you or you are even born with it. But commitment is something you take up or you make out of your own free will. So its your word against everything else. It goes without saying that you have to see it through.

So what to do when/if there is a clash of des 2 objectives!?!

What if your commitment comes in way of your happiness? Maybe dis clash was not apparent at the time of making the commitment and reveals in dues course. So should one give up on the commitment coz it turned out to be different from what he/she bargained for? And just give up on this cause of discomfort and be happy again?

But then can one be happy/content when they have falsified der own word? IS it wise giving up something coz it was different from our expectations? Shouldn’t we stick to it since it was a choice we made for ourself and if not one else, we should honour it for our own sake?

Any comments anyone?