Hating you

You said I simply can never hate you

If only you knew how much I do hate you

How much I have always hated you.

 

Hate you for storming into my life,

uninvited

and smashing down all my defences

making me vulnerable to you.

You hurt me so many times

I did not retaliate

thinking YOU would be hurt.

Still you accuse ME of hurting you!

imagine if I wanted, what all I could have done.

 

Hate you for making me feel so much for you

I cannot leave you when your life is not all rosy

Cannot see you all alone, so sad and gloomy

And so I am right beside you just in case you need me

And I will stay even though it kills me

Till the time I can’t anymore

or till the time you don’t need me anymore

 

But till then I will hate you

for making me love you so much

that I put you before me.

Does that make me a doormat?

 

 

 

 

Ok this is not exactly a poem but it’s something I just wanted to take out.